One Way Or Another

I’m starting to think I’m a terrible person.

I’ve taken on the X365 Project. Basically, you are to write a post a day using only the number of words in your age to describe people who have touched your life. I started another blog for this project and I currently just posted Person #15.

Sounds simple enough, right? Well, I’m finding writing with only 41 (my age) words to be fairly easy to do, but I’m having real trouble compiling a list of 365 people who I have actually met and remember their names that have touched my life, good or bad.

To me, this means they’ve had an impact on me one way or another. I’ve been thinking, pondering, looking at old pictures and yearbooks and currently only have a list of about 150. I'm not even halfway there.

I’m also spending too much time wondering how many people on my list would include me on their list. Maybe my problem is that I personally haven’t made the effort to touch the lives of many people? I don’t know!

I can certainly compile a list of 365 people I’ve met and remember their names throughout my life. Honestly, I don’t feel that a lot of those people have actually influenced, inspired or irritated me in any way. I may like or dislike them, but as far as their impacting my life, I just feel indifferent about them.

On the flip side, there are people that I’ve never actually met in person, but who have been a great inspiration to me.

The more I try to come up with a list of people, the more I realize that I rarely let anyone’s actions or ideas sway my behavior, goals or dreams.

If I’ve wanted to know something, I don’t wait for someone to teach me, I get busy with a books and the internet and I teach myself.

I don’t wait for people to do things with me, if I want to go somewhere or experience something, I’m normally perfectly happy to go by myself.

I rarely go to anyone for advice and I’m really not swayed by what other people are doing or think that I should or shouldn’t be doing.

I am my own person, I guess. I am my own thinker and am very independent.

What do you think? I am almost 42 years old and grew up and live in a large city. I have had to come into contact with thousands or people in that time span.

Do you think it’s odd that I’m having trouble coming up with a list of 365 people that have affected my life in one way or another?