Friday, June 13, 2008

Don't It Make My Brown Eyes Blue

Yesterday I received some very troubling news from my daughter, her therapist and her physician.

I mentioned yesterday that Middle Daughter suffers from Depression, Anorexia Nervosa and Body Dysmorphic Disorder. After a complete physical exam earlier in the week, several therapy sessions and my daughter’s desire to battle this illness, it was determined that she has unfortunately completely relapsed and will need to be hospitalized again.

She spent most of last summer in the hospital and I didn't blog about it because I was having my own problems trying to deal with it. With time, though, I learned, too that keeping things secret is not always good. I have some great readers who I consider friends and I shouldn't have to worry that my blog is always upbeat and/or RANTastic, right?

I can’t say I was completely surprised to hear this, but sometimes hoping that something isn’t so keeps me from accepting what I might be seeing with my own brown eyes.

I am so proud of her for coming forward and accepting help and so pained that she is having troubles. Eating Disorders are extremely difficult battles to fight and I know somewhere, Healthy Samantha is still in there not giving up and that is giving us all hope.

Still, it is incredibly hard seeing your baby struggle like this. My daughter is extremely attractive, intelligent and so talented it’s almost unbelievable. I’m not even saying this because I’m her mother. I’m so hoping that one day soon, she will be able to see herself the same way everyone else does.

My brown eyes are very blue today as I make the necessary arrangements. I’m so sad that somebody I love so much is in so much pain and there is nothing I can do.

If you pray, cross your fingers, keep good thoughts, wish on stars...whatever it is you do, if you could please add my Samantha to your list it would mean a lot to me.

11 comments:

katherine. said...

adding samantha (and you) to my list....

Malcolm said...

You and your family will be in my thoughts.

Jessica Morris said...

Will be praying for Samantha. That's very "big" of her to come forward for help.
(((hugs))) for you all!

And your gas - wow! What is it at per gallon right now? It stinks that gas is such an essential part of life, therefore a necessary expense.

Crystal said...

I'm so sorry that she's struggling so much right now. I'll keep her in my prayers.

SmileyGirl said...

Oh girlie that is so hard! I commend Samantha for reaching out for help. It is such a hard disease to kick and she may struggle but she is on the road to recovery. The fact that she recognizes she needs help is such a great thing. It hurts so much to stand by and watch our babies hurt but just standing beside them helps. I'll send along my thoughts and prayers for her and your family. {{Hugs}}

Vixen said...

From a mother's point of you, I know how hard this is for you.

You, Samantha, and your entire family are in my prayers, honey.

Dustin said...

I will keep you, Samantha, and the rest of your family in my prayers as well.

PopArtDiva said...

Samantha is on my positive thoughts list and in my prayers!

So are you!

The Rock Chick said...

Thank you all for your prayers, wishes and comments! I have some of the best bloggy friends anyone could ever ask for!

The Rock Chick said...

Thank you all for your prayers, wishes and comments! I have some of the best bloggy friends anyone could ever ask for!

Jenny McB said...

Nobody said it was going to be easy when they handed us the infant after we gave birth...hope it goes well this summer for you and your daughter.